Re: General Chat: September 2013

by No.1JerlitaFan Sun Sep 22, 2013 4:55 pm

OH COOL! I play violin!

by Stella Luce 333 Mon Sep 23, 2013 7:40 am

I kind of wish that I had stuck with a musical instrument when I was younger…but I have really bad stage fright, so performing was never an option for me…

by cya6 Mon Sep 23, 2013 8:27 am

I used to play trumpet, than euphonium. Was never SO into it that I continued playing past 5th grade, though I was half decent.
My agoraphobic friend (who I may happen to have a HUGE hopeless crush on) is insanely musically talented. He can take any instrument and sound decent on it after a little.
I only wish I was still good at some kind of musical instrument.

by No.1JerlitaFan Mon Sep 23, 2013 1:36 pm

Why is it hopeless? I thought he trusted you and the agoraphobia didn't show around you.

by cya6 Mon Sep 23, 2013 2:11 pm

He's in college, 4 hours away. He's a college student with college things going on at his college. He wouldn't be interested in a girl back home.
Plus I think he has a girlfriend...

by No.1JerlitaFan Mon Sep 23, 2013 8:03 pm

Oh...i'm sorry. I didn't realize.

by cya6 Tue Sep 24, 2013 9:38 pm

I think I'm done. This semester is even worse than last, I've got less motivation, less interest, less energy. I don't enjoy things. Everything seems overwhelming and pointless, I hate all my classes, don't like my classmates, don't like my teachers. I don't enjoy learning or finding out new things anymore. I don't like any subjects, I'm so focused on just finishing the material so it can be done, I'm not retaining anything. I feel a constant sense of dread and overwhelmingness when I think of the future, because I don't know how I'm going to be able to continue school to fulfill my dreams if even thinking about class makes me feel depressed.
I can honestly say I don't think I'm going to be able to do this. It gets worse every semester. I brought up how pointless and useless and overwhelming this is to my parents, who said I should find some kind of help at school.
They don't get that I can't do that because I already hate my life so much any extra time spent at school is going to make it unbearable.
I brought this up to my therapist who, basically, told me I was gonna have to suck it up.

Well thanks. Just thanks. I hate this. I hate my school and I hate myself and I hate my life. This has been the third evening in a row that I've felt like s**t. And it's going to keep getting worse. I can't keep doing this.

by Stella Luce 333 Thu Sep 26, 2013 7:57 am

Have you ever thought about taking a semester off, or maybe even just dropping some of your classes? Maybe take some time to look at some other schools…In the long run, your health & happiness are top priority!

by cya6 Thu Sep 26, 2013 8:16 am

That's what my friend said. I don't know. It doesn't feel worth sacrificing my future just for my sanity and happiness and health.

by **Snickie** Thu Sep 26, 2013 11:07 pm

What "future" can you look forward to if you're so upset and feeling so s***ty you can't see past the troubles?
If you feel overwhelmed, suck up your pride/whatever and talk to your professors about it, and if they can't/won't help then drop a course or two and take it next semester.
And goshdarnit, health is one of the most basic human essentials. If you're not healthy, then how can you expect to be able to do your best work in school/whatever intellectual activity? This ranges from colds to depression to cancer. Be healthy (put some effort into it where you can (which is in more areas than you probably think)), and try to enjoy some part of your day enough to want to do it every day.
/mild b****y mode

And now a few questions.
Do you stress eat?
How often do you exercise your body?

Now, ahem, speaking of health, if I want to get anywhere near 6 hours of sleep tonight I should hit the hay.

by Ivona no Fyra Sun Sep 29, 2013 3:07 pm

by Stella Luce 333 Mon Sep 30, 2013 9:01 pm

Aww!!! He/She’s so cute!!!

On the subject of college, it’s not a race to get your degree…even if it feels like it. It can be kind of hard to forge your own path, but the whole point of college is to start figuring out who you are, on your terms. Believe me, I know it’s easier said than done (mostly because it’s hard for me to do), but it’s worth it!

by cya6 Mon Sep 30, 2013 9:10 pm

It's so stressing. I am freaking out because chem isn't making sense. Any sense at all. And I can't focus. And guys are being weird.
Seriously weird. Like, last time I checked, being tiny and having bad skin and ever thinning hair is not attractive. Being emotionally unbalanced and fragile is not attractive. Having panic and anxiety attacks is not attractive.
So why are they acting like it is?

by Stella Luce 333 Mon Sep 30, 2013 9:21 pm

I’m terrible with chemistry, so I’m afraid I can’t help you there…As for the guys, maybe now that you’re in a relationship, they just want who they can’t have!

by cya6 Mon Sep 30, 2013 9:30 pm

But I'm NOT in a relationship. We broke up a few weeks ago, and I am never going to be with the guy I want to be with.
He lives far away and goes to college. And he's brilliant and talented and smart and amazing, but he's also very introverted and agoraphobic. Which are things I love about him (in spite of not because of) but also I feel like I'd be a super high maintenance girl friend, and he'd need someone who can always be there for him, and we'd end up pulling each other down.
Plus he doesn't like me.

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